vulnerable. if you trust, you will become vulnerable. it's an unsaid rule in life. you trust people, they change, they let you down, you fall, and and guess what? your trust, that valuable and rare gift that few people give to others is broken. you wonder, can i ever trust again?
this has happened in my life lately. people i trusted changed. people change. people you think you knew turn out to be so extremely different than they appeared. trust is broken, over and over.
so who can we trust? no one? it seems that way, so much. you look at people who still hold your trust in their hands and hearts and wonder, one day, will you too break my trust? can i truly trust anyone? it is hard to trust, knowing that someday, your trust will be betrayed, broken, or discarded like those who held it don't even care. hard? oh, yes.
but here's something to think about. Jesus never fails us. never. He is always there. He says "I will never leave you, nor forsake you." and it's true; even when it seems that we are alone, with no one to trust, talk to, lean on, He is still there.
so, become vulnerable. not reckless, not inadvertent about who you place your trust in, not unwise. just don't be afraid to trust others. they will fail you, at some time in your life, and the bond of trust may have to be restored. and even if it never is restored, we know that there is Someone who we can always trust. always depend upon. One who never fails.
vulnerability is hard. i don't like being vulnerable. being open; being honest; being real is hard! we build walls around ourselves, to protect our hearts from being broken, but we can't live like that. we have to be open and honest with those we love, even if it means we are not shielded from pain, and the hurt that comes when people change. it's a part of life. a never ending pattern. trust, fail, fall, trust, fail, fall. but if we never trust--if we never open our hearts, we can never grow, and others will never see what is truly inside, and how our souls are begging to love, and desiring to trust. we have to become vulnerable. even if it means we get hurt sometimes.
You do your best to build a higher wall
To keep love safe from any wrecking ball
When the dust has cleared we will
See the house that love rebuilds
Guarding beauty that lives there still
-I'm With You by Nichole Nordeman & Amy Grant