4.11.2013

becoming vulnerable.


vulnerable. if you trust, you will become vulnerable. it's an unsaid rule in life. you trust people, they change, they let you down, you fall, and and guess what? your trust, that valuable and rare gift that few people give to others is broken. you wonder, can i ever trust again? 

this has happened in my life lately. people i trusted changed. people change. people you think you knew turn out to be so extremely different than they appeared. trust is broken, over and over.


so who can we trust? no one? it seems that way, so much. you look at people who still hold your trust in their hands and hearts and wonder, one day, will you too break my trust? can i truly trust anyone? it is hard to trust, knowing that someday, your trust will be betrayed, broken, or discarded like those who held it don't even care. hard? oh, yes.


but here's something to think about. Jesus never fails us. never. He is always there. He says "I will never leave you, nor forsake you." and it's true; even when it seems that we are alone, with no one to trust, talk to, lean on, He is still there. 


so, become vulnerable. not reckless, not inadvertent about who you place your trust in, not unwise. just don't be afraid to trust others. they will fail you, at some time in your life, and the bond of trust may have to be restored. and even if it never is restored, we know that there is Someone who we can always trust. always depend upon. One who never fails. 


vulnerability is hard. i don't like being vulnerable. being open; being honest; being real is hard! we build walls around ourselves, to protect our hearts from being broken, but we can't live like that. we have to be open and honest with those we love, even if it means we are not shielded from pain, and the hurt that comes when people change. it's a part of life. a never ending pattern. trust, fail, fall, trust, fail, fall. but if we never trust--if we never open our hearts, we can never grow, and others will never see what is truly inside, and how our souls are begging to love, and desiring to trust. we have to become vulnerable. even if it means we get hurt sometimes.

You do your best to build a higher wall
To keep love safe from any wrecking ball
When the dust has cleared we will

See the house that love rebuilds
Guarding beauty that lives there still

-I'm With You by Nichole Nordeman & Amy Grant

10 comments:

  1. Thanks for posting this- I needed to read this today. I`m not a religious person, but I have to say I`ve been feeling a little lost lately and have been being to lean more into God. I think it may be the one thing that can consistently bring me peace.

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    Jess

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  2. *sniff* thank you. This was lovely dear. Really. Your words said it all.

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  3. this was such a good post, mikailah. i've been there ─ it's so hard when someone you've always relied on changes/breaks your trust. but a verse popped into my head as i was reading:
    "it is better to take refuge in Adonai than to trust in human beings; better to take refuge in Adonai than to put one’s trust in princes."
    YHWH's word is pretty clear that our trust should fully be His, because we're all human + every human makes mistakes. (another thing to note is that if we're trusting the Lord completely, He will guide us through the Holy Spirit regarding whose fruits are pure, and who we should trust.)

    really enjoyed this one, girlie. :)
    xx, jess

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  4. this post is incredible, Mikailah. so true. every word seemed to breathe your heart, i can tell. thank you for sharing this. =) it blessed me, and encouraged me.

    -ali

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  5. this is really good. so truthful :)

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  6. this is beautiful (so are you and your heart, girl!)
    I love the fact I can always trust and know He will never fail us and that He never changes.

    "Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever."
    (Hebrews 13:8) :)

    thank you for sharing, Mikailah! <3

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  7. this is all too true.
    as c.s. lewis perfectly put it: "To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable.”

    I can completely and utterly relate to how it is to be let down by those who we invest all our trust - but then I probably have let down people as well. and then one just has to remember that it is so good to love. far more rewarding than to lock your heart away.

    love this lots, pretty lady! xoxo

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  8. This is really encouraging. Thank you.
    Tane xxx

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  9. That's just beautiful, Mikailah! Really beautiful. I know the pain and difficulty... I've felt it so often with people I thought I trusted and who trusted me - but Jesus is faithful and will never, never leave you or me! And the important thing is to keep on loving. For love never fails. Yes, we must not be naive, but we can love!

    "so, become vulnerable. not reckless, not inadvertent about who you place your trust in, not unwise. just don't be afraid to trust others. they will fail you, at some time in your life, and the bond of trust may have to be restored. and even if it never is restored, we know that there is Someone who we can always trust. always depend upon. One who never fails."
    SO TRUE!

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  10. Thank you. What an intense blog. I recognize a lot of it. Let's listen at Jesus' voice: I am with you: every day! Even on the days that we are disappointed.

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